I can't talk about my problems because I convince myself no one would listen/care.

Even with my huge fear of spiders, I miss the spider that made pretty, large, and beautiful webs outside my front door at night.

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Originally Posted by Fubab_107 I can't talk about my problems because I convince myself no one would listen/care.

I fall asleep chewing gum all the time because I can't bring myself to simply get up and throw it away.

I did'nt like my new headphones, but could'nt be bothered to return them.

I had this amazing dream where I finally got enough self-confidence to do something as great as leading a group to do an attack on the school. Or something, the dream's still fuzzy. It was the most amazing dream I've had and I wished it could've gone on forever...
But I'm trying to make it a reality! (Not the attack part, lol) I'm finally trying to build up more self-confidence already by speaking more and louder, meeting new people, and trying to stop caring about how others see me. Yeah, time to do this!

I care more about the lives of people in Skyrim than most people in real life.

I've lost a few games in a relative's car once, only to find them years later. I was shocked to find them, and I was happy to be able to play them again~

I am still scared witless by Redeeads. Of course who wouldn't be, right?

I just can't seem to motivate myself to do anything anymore. I'm not sure what happened, but I can't even do the simplest bit of homework without procrastinating.

The only reason why I want kids is because my family is boring and I think I could do better.

Remember how I always used to state how I am not a furry? Well, I lied, because I am. Middle school sure does change you.

I fear I am becoming what society calls "normal."
My grades are improving, I'm less antisocial then I was three years ago and I'm getting over my trust issues with teacher (I was severally beaten in the 3rd grade by students at recess to the point where I will have back problems for the rest of my life, the teachers at that school just sat there and watched). I don't want to be "normal" as I hate to conform.

I think I'd like being a movie editor.

On the topic of my old school, I once contemplated whacking (the mob definition) the person who led the vicious beating. The sick part is I almost went through with it. I'm sane-ish now though.

Yesterday I realized that I don't actually like rap that much. I listen to it all the time, but I'll only stick to a few select artists/groups.

I can remember the sounds of many instrument voices from many video games.

I can walk you through how to finish the Sarthal Puzzle in skyrim with ease, but I can't walk you through how to get from one town to another

I'm terrible at playing 3D video games sometimes. =w=

I play with fire....a lot. *puts away matches* I'm definitely not a pyromaniac. =w=

Even though they're my friends, and my friends know I swear a lot, I feel uncomfortable swearing around certain people.

lol omgg I'm so cheesy but my day gets better when I enter 4th period and see the girl I like sitting in front of me.
Or maybe it's because it's the period before lunch.

I Keep pondering my existence around my peers....and that i feel that iv'e taken someones spot on earth..

I an phisicaly incapeble of screaming

I react to change strongly and aggressively.

I'm considered a pariah at my old school because I DON'T smoke weed or drink alcohol.

I can think things completely normally and talk normally in my head, but for some reason, whenever I talk, I always sound really awkward unless I'm with someone I'm comfortable with. I don't know why that is, either. I feel completely normal even when I talk in that awkward way, but right after I realize how awkward or weird I sounded, I feel a bit more uncomfortable in the situation. Again, I don't know why. Also, for some reason, whenever I'm in public, I feel more uncomfortable with myself because I think that all the random people are more judgmental than they really are.

Apparently I make the most adorable, high pitched, and unmanly giggles ever when someone tickles me in the sides or stomach. Well, there goes another thing I hate about myself.

I still sleep with stuffed animals. =w=

I find my cousin's girlfriend very attractive, so it's weird when he brings her to family parties and stuff because I get all awakward and paranoid she'll see me staring at her.

I cuddle with my pillow sometimes and pretend it’s the person I have a crush on. >//////>

I find myself to like things that others generally find annoying. Like I really think Justin Bieber is a good musician, maybe even better than some of today's, and that people just hate on him because of jealousy. Same goes for One Direction. Call Me Maybe is actually a great song, ngl.
And it's not like I pretend to like them just to get people mad, I really think people just overreact to things and dislike it because others do.

Buuuuuuuut I also hate things other people like just to get them mad. Mostly ponies and K-Pop. And Slender isn't even SCARY.

So yeah, swag.

Also, I post too much in this thread.

It annoys me when people immediately assume that someone hate people purely out of jealousy. I hate/dislike people for reasons, because another thing that annoys me is when someone hates other people for no reason.

Another thing is that I agree with Shiny, Call Me Maybe isn't that bad.

The idea of playing a Pokémon Mystery Dungeon game puts me off, as the thought of going through one-hundred floors seems like it'd take waaaaaaay too long.

Don't mean to bring politics in here, but just thought I'd share this. I support gay marriage and am honestly surprised by how many people are against it. In reality, sexuality is natural... It's basically what sex you naturally "prefer". Think about it this way, if one were to have a crush on someone, most of the time, they can't really control their feelings for that person. Same goes for pretty much sexuality...

I am not real, I'm instead controlled by another jelly.

I tend to make fun of people who are considered less intelligent than me.

It depresses me slightly that I can't get a job for another year and a half.

Also, I misspell two letter words a lot.

Sometimes it really does take an act of God to get me to stop listening to music.

I have a crush on an anime character.

If they eventually get rid of div and I keep doing this for images, I am screwed.

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I might not live for way to much longer (due to medical issues) and I'm stuck working at Wendy's. A dead end job, barely making enough money to pay rent, let alone get my car plates, and since I get sick rather easily, they don't trust me to have more then 25 hours a week.

I hate my life and I'm actually hella depressed. This isn't a think I'd admit to my roommate though, I wouldn't want him to worry, because I do actually legitimately like my friends and hanging out with them, but thats generally the only part of my life I even like. The rest of it is just so much of a strain sometimes that I cry myself ill.

Birth Defect isn't something I can fight through and have a normal life expectancy with. My Lungs are just not so great.

Also with the non birth defect things, My stomach has been giving me issues, my joints just suck, my hearing seems to be slowly going to.

It just feels as if Physically, I'm falling apart.

Last year, the 10th Grade, was the first time I've been on the honor roll for all 4 quarters.

I'm so shy at times that it hurts emotionally.

I feel ashamed that I like Homestuck and I don't know anybody here that does.

Back in middle and elementary school, I had a huge obsession with death. I would always draw my comic characters dying or getting hurt in absolutely insane ways.

I love and hate being scared. Whenever it's dark I read creepypastas, listen to MrCreepypasta narrate some on youtube or play scary games like Amnesia, or Luna's Game... By the nine I hate luna's game.

There are only one or two people on VR who I actually feel bad for treating like crap back in the day when I would do so to everyone. Everyone else, well, no regrets.

I've made some wonderful (albeit somewhat vague) plans for the future and although they're nothing grandiose, I just get the feeling something is going to go horribly wrong...

I have a closer relationship with my aunt than with my parents step mom included.
So I practically stay at her place 24/7. She's really the only one I'm comfortable talking to.
Same goes with my other aunt but she's off to college so I don't talk to her as much anymore.

I'm a man of science and demand cold hard facts for me to accept something as truth... however, I believe that the Slender Man is real, and this is part of the reason why I hate night time. It also doesn't help knowing that I've seen The Operator symbol, a mark associated with Slender Man (see attachments), around the town I live in, which consists of people who have never heard of this monstrosity. The marks were also in hard to get to places.

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I truly only care about 4 people on this site, even though I love the whole community as a whole.

I have a very annoying tendency to Like most girls I see, before seriously getting to know them and when I try to talk to them my "Inability" of Public Speaking begins to shine in.... and thing either go quiet very fast or very awkward

I've never gotten a report card with all A's on it yet people still say I'm one of the smartest people they know.

Even though I suppress my feelings and emotions so I won't be affected by the little things people say, I don't think they realize that I am still human and therefore still have SOME feelings. I can be pretty sensitive in some areas, and that's where it's really effective and hurtful.

I really want to classify everyone's Patron Troll on this forum, but I don't want to bother everyone with it. I know I should just check their profile, but I'd rather have the decency of asking because I feel really guilty of going to someones profile and not saying anything.

I keep realizing i'm complaining to people over menial things and it's something i try to get over...

My brain doesn't work until it's too late. Like today, my friend Richard wanted my help on a governor school project. We were testing the effects of common chemicals found in acid rain on plant growth one of which is sulfuric acid, so I did that one and spilt a good amount on my hand. I also decided not to clean it off until I had finished pouring the exact amount. Now I have chemical burns on my hand.

Even though I really love music, I find that I hardly listen to it, and even less so of my own accord.

I thought about it today and as I was walking home from school I realized that I almost constantly have music running through my brain whenever I'm doing something alone. I sometimes listen to my iPod on my way home, but I can replay the same songs in my head without it, in even greater variety. They're usually band pieces or other classical works I find particularly catchy. When I'm cleaning up after supper I usually make up my own stuff, which I promptly forget.

I also can't really just listen to music, I usually like to be doing something at the same time, whether it's sing and dancing along, cleaning up after supper or taking the bus (though I can't read or do homework while listen to music, especially music with lyrics). Also, listening to "Dance of the Sugar Plum Fairy" on the bus makes the whole world feel skewed, if you ever want to try it.

When ever I play an RPG, I always create a back story for my character, even if the only one who knows it is me.

Some people on here I try to avoid not because I feel too shy but because I hate them and I know that if we were to come across each other I'd cause a scene and get infracted or worse.

i often lie to impress when in a conversation that puts pressure on me

When at a restaurant, school, or some other public place, my first thought when I'm about to enter the bathroom is "I hope nobody else is in the bathroom." My second thought, which occurs while I'm in the bathroom if nobody is in it when I enter, is "I hope nobody enters the bathroom while I'm here."

I do whatever I can to impress my history teacher, not because I'm a teachers pet, but because he plays favorites when it comes to grades.

I was coming back on a field trip, and the bus we were on was really crowded
and this guy and his girlfriend couldn't sit together and the guy ended up beside me and his girlfriend in front of him...they offered me stuff so they could sit together. I moved and let him sit with his girlfriend, then afterward they both called me nice
-whats conflicting is that I dont know if it was false appreciation or not...
^sorry for the long-ish post...I'm just not sure

Whenever I see people cry (be it in real life or an anime), I usually tear up; especially when girls cry. If I see a girl crying, it just completely rips my heart to shreds.

I have two sides; one of virtue and one of vice. On one hand, I could be a great contributor to society and help a lot of people in need, but then again I could be an extreme dictator and a control-freak to everyone, not to mention an insanely power-hungry menace. Sometimes, it feels like the vice side is winning.

I consider myself partially polytheistic, as I believe in Greek gods as well as the common one true God. I've always wanted to learn and study other religions, actually.

Today's the first time I've touched a laptop or computer in months. Mobile browsing is cool doe.

I have major drowning fear

I can't remember if I've said this before, but I have a pretty big procrastinating habit. I think the main problem is that when I'm home, I get in a completely different mentality then when I'm at school. I wish I could just stay at school, get all my work done, and come back home later. I would honestly prefer that.

When I'm not fully conscious, sometimes I'll start singing my favorite songs from MLP. Just anywhere, for no reason.

Never in my life, when a death has befallen my family, have I shed a tear. Not because I am a sick and twisted person, but because I know that they must have been in pain (every death was of cancer, and not old age) and that they are final free of the pain.
BONUS (due to circumstances) When ever I get sad, I listen to this song.